Conspiracies...tedious (rant)?

I've noticed that my fave alt. media youtube channels are running out of conspiracy news so are rehashing snippets from Boston, Sandyhook etc.  It's really a seasonal thing. If there's nothing new in the works, the fruit rots on the vine, the harvest is poor for that year...so come on govt. do something, stage something! After a while all events merge into a dreary mass anyway...once you've "woken up" what next? There's nowhere to go, your friends aren't interested and hate conspiracy talk...the news on TV becomes like a dream-news, not real..unless you switch back into normal accepting of the fallacies mode so then you can experience news together with the family instead of silently choking in the corner when yet another beheading pops up. It's lonely being awake...it seems pointless because it's not likely anything will ever change...it seems an endless march up  cut/paste hills on the airbrushed mockery of Mars towards the pinnacle..."Disclosure" which we all know will NEVER happen.  Even if everyone is awake in their own minds...until the truth paradigm changes in the mainstream world, until the govt. and media and corporations come clean...life continues sad and static.